You Take What You Can Get And You Die With It

Something really amazing happened to you. Something you never dreamed ever would be in your hands, red hot and burning through the palms of your hands. What do you do? You want it SO BADLY, you can feel the desire melting down your spine. But you can't have it. Or maybe you could, but you certainly shouldn't. So you make a list of choices, how to deal with the situation. You could: 1) Sabotage the whole thing. Be a madwoman/madman. Convince yourself you don't deserve it, until it starts to believe you. Follow every self-destructive nerve ending until you are alone once again, laying in a pile of ash. 2) Be patient. Simple, hard, long. Be virtuous, and faithful, and optimistic. Believe that if you turn a blind eye and continue to drive along the answer will eventually appear in front of you. 3. Pack up all your things. Leave. Leave it all behind. There is no control. We have no control. All we can do is try to understand that life is sort of a joke anyway, a sad and wonderful and short joke. Breathe, go through the motions, be mad in your head or all the other aspects of your life except the one that consumes you most. Be dignified. Take all the sharp turns and left hooks you can because bruises give you depth. Make yourself over over and over again, until looking in the mirror and not recognizing yourself is routine. All you've got right now is you. Maybe sometime soon, or sometime far, you will have him. But for now it can never be. The Atlantic Ocean robbed you of a second chance to taste those lips. Twist it into inspiration. Write, write, write. Light yourself up like a spark and marvel at your shine. Consider growing accustomed to a different taste. But then again, maybe no. I didn't say give up did I? Don't give up. You know you love the impossible. You know you are a challenge who loves challenges. You are chasing a dream. What could be more worth a few burns than that?